AaliyahC.

Patience

You called yesterday at 10:21 pm

I was hoping to never hear from you again

My hands went cold, and time froze

I knew.

I fucking knew.

yet I didn\'t cry this time 

I didn\'t shed a tear

but it shook me 

so fucking bad

I\'m so disappointed and sad

kind of glad

the feelings had 

are short of nothing but the past

I have a peace you wish you had

I blocked your new number too

I can\'t redo that with you

everything is still too new

10:21 pm was so cruel 

yet I still went cold in time

I know I still love you it\'s true 

but it\'s so weird 

it\'s like I don\'t remember you

you were my first real love

something so blue

and I felt that blue again

I can\'t do that again

because I won\'t make it this time

I won\'t win

death will be my friend

everything will disappear

I\'ll pray and apologize for my sins

praying my friends have patience for the pathetic ways to my end.