If someone told me to describe
The pesky emotion trapped in my quivering body
Threatening to bubble up and spill
I would simply call it “Angsty Feelings”
They’re like a vice
Gripping your very being
Twisting till all you feel is heightened
Prominent
Terrifying
And yes, I am terrified
Of the actions I make
When it reaches a boiling point
This overwhelming feeling to do something
Sometimes bad
Sometimes good
Sometimes fucking unexplainable
I hate when I feel like this
It comes and goes in waves
Each one stronger than the last
And it takes a shitty amount of restraint
To make my decisions
Not what it wants me to do
Unexpectedly, suddenly, it stopped
And in its place grew weariness
Exhaustion like I’ve never experienced
The need to do nothing
Absolutely nothing
In any case
It’s still my Angst acting up
In a different form
Who am I fucking kidding?
I’ve lived with it my whole life
I’m confident in identifying the unidentifiable
And angsty feelings are the top of it
We teenagers know
Don’t we?