Loneliness, the unwelcomed guest that cannot be chased
It showers us with plaguing feels;
In between nowhere, disconnected,
Alone in my confusion, no one understands me,
the familiar feels far away, no one sees or hears me.
Flaws suddenly taste sweet,
“Our shortcomings “ our escape.
It’s laughable right ?
It quietly creeps in like a ghost,
the guilty pleasures , what we desire the most,
We think can kill it right?
To fill the void, to avoid the dark,
They promise to get me out of the dark ,
Promise peace I couldn’t find.
Insecurities swallowed me instead,
dragged me from one pit to a deeper ditch.
It made me cling to deadly things,
Pleasures that last for a little while,
For a little while it was euphoric,
For a longer while I was drowned in guilt.
Loneliness broke me apart,
It left a fractured mind.
when it was done with me,
I lost my power,
I was fading away.
The disgrace drove out peace,
Drove me out of Gods path,
Left me scattered in ruins.
The things I lie to myself about,
That I claim to be happy about,
How do I let them go?
So that when I am lonely,
I find peace instead of pain.