In the shadows of your indifference, I stand alone,
A little sister\'s heart turned to stone.
I reached for closeness, you turned away,
Leaving me adrift in disarray.
You took for granted my admiring gaze,
Left me to fend in life\'s cruel maze.
No guidance offered, no comfort shown,
Our roles reversed, my pain unknown.
I became your shield when grace had fled,
Protected you when your spirit seemed dead.
My light I gave, a beacon in the night,
More than you\'ll ever know, I fought your fight.
Behind closed doors, where silence screams,
I absorbed the blows, the hurtful schemes.
Words meant for you, I took instead,
A burden too heavy for my young mind.
Your love and embrace, all I ever sought,
But despair consumed the heart you caught.
I shouldered burdens meant for you,
A failed big sister if you only knew.
My life, precious, you carelessly spent,
Each moment wasted; no love was lent.
Forgive these walls I\'ve built so high,
To shield the wounds that make me cry.
A memory burns, Pacific in name,
A little sister hurt, smeared with shame.
No need to shout from rooftops tall,
You know the truth behind my wall.
I searched for a sister I\'ll never find,
A bond forever left behind.
In verses of sorrow, in rhymes of pain,
I mourn the bigger sister I could call mine.