If you could hear my voice
you would know
I was crying on the other side
As I comforted you
If you could see my face
Realise that I was not okay
You would see that I needed you
And you wouldnt know
Even as I spoke
You were on the other side
Right next to me
On your phone
Ignoring the tears that fell from my face onto the chair
As I smiled
such a small phrase
\"Dont just sit there\"
really struck
because I sit there everyday
and talk to you
and comfort you
laugh with you
with tears dripping down my face
and you dont even know
how much it bleeds
inside
My mouth tastes blood
From the words that cut my mouth
even as I say this
sitting on the chair
I know its the start
of what you dont understand