Why do I
Heavy shadows press on me all night
As I search for answers, for my guiding light.
All my motives I expose
I justify every path I’ve chose.
Why do I feel lost and alone
Trapped in the nightmare where the darkness is home.
Why do I beg on my knees, stare at the floor
Where is my sense of purpose, wish I could find once more.
Why do I keep missing the warm tough of your hands
How once we were hot lovers, now barely are friends.
Why do I keep on stabbing my heart, drowning in pain
Being pulled in this love’s twister I cry out in vain.
Why do I always question, what do I seek
The truth is often hidden while lies never cease to speak.
Why do I, your place, my own wish to call
Where’s my sense of belonging, where can I stand tall.
Why do I keep on dreaming of foreign distant lands
Of vast open seas and burning hot sands.
Why do I think I can talk to the wind and count every drop of rain
I must have gone crazy, this cannot be sane.
Why do I feel cold trembling underneath my fears
Getting intoxicated on bitter sweet tears.
Why do I yearn to spread my wings and fly
When only your love can crash me while making me high.
In stillness of silence, look a familiar voice
The echoing whisper pressing me to make my choice.
Why don’t I follow my heart, trust my soul
Only answers I seek will make me whole.