Oh, Hi, I didn’t think I’d see you here,
I mean,
Stood here praying
I think I’m out of touch these days
What the hell am I saying?
Maybe I’ll just drink,
‘Cause who the hell would pray?
I see you, you say:
“Don’t drink the pain away”
Whatever…
Whatever…
I remember,
A day before therapy was status
I would read shit that I barely understood,
But it shot down my hurt,
While I hid
I don’t do Jack shit anymore
But if I did,
I’d be doing it tonight, for sure,
For sure…
For sure…
I can’t help but thinking about how,
My time here’s stood still
Daydream, and scheming,
Fuck! I wanna kill
I move so slow,
I’m stood mourning
What I didn’t know
Go! Go!
Go… Go…
Numb me! My body go numb!
Numb me! My body go numb!
Drown me! In you, I succumb!
Whatever… Whatever…
There’s this lake that I passed,
On the way to my work
Surrounded by thick grass,
Surrounding earth
My happiest space,
So warm and peaceful,
‘Til at last it was,
Fucking prolific!
They’re watching,
They’re waiting,
‘Til at last I am weak,
Then behind me, they drown me
To weak to bastard speak!
At her eulogy
She can drown in my Hell
They would disown my fucking sense of self,
I am a clown…
Drown my Hell…
Numb me! My body go numb!
To you I bastard succumb!
Numb me! My body go numb!
To you I bastard succumb!
I need you! My body go numb!
I am screaming! My body go numb!
I’m drowning! I’m underwater!
You don’t care…
Whatever…
How the Hell did you get here?
You’re the only one what’s coming
I’ll give you a drag of my cigarette,
Me, you’re shaming
I mean - hey I’m numb
So what if I’m dumb?
She can’t hear me say:
“I’ll fuck ‘til my pain’s away,
I’ll drink ‘til my pain’s away,”
I’m crying now, I should have told her I cared,
I’m crying… I should have told her I cared…