I tell myself that I’m just not okay
I wish I could just listen and believe
Since when did I deserve to be reprieved
The tension in the air brings me dismay
I feel my body starting to decay
My pain and trauma I can still conceive
The terror makes me shout and cry and grieve
Oh please I wish this fear would fade away
But even though my guilt and shame are strong
I push my angst aside and I can see
Although my soul is hurt and torn beneath
My vengeance is all that makes me so wrong
So I remove my rage and I am free
And finally I feel that I can breathe