The Devils Smile.
I don\'t want to open my eyes and see what is there.
The devils constant smile and the sad angel’s glare.
The path ahead seems full of just pain and despair.
I would no doubt suffocate and drown in my fears.
A deep breath and step forward is all I need to take.
Nightmares of the past will then appear to be fake.
My dreams and wishes of the future are clear to me.
I don’t believe my dreams can be turned into reality.
A lack of confidence is something i have always had.
I have an amazing ability to turn good into such bad.
Memories that are so vivid and scar me from the past.
Continued distrust and fear of life that seems to last.
Fear of the unknown always comes to the very fore.
All this mistrust and confusion I have seen it all before.
Nights of darkness that i reside and struggle to live in.
Wondering if happiness is something to just imagine.
There is no way to go forward; I can only move back.
I know full well that will not get my life back on track.
I take a deep breath and my heart quickly shudders.
I feel I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.
As the light slowly comes up and I open my tired eyes.
The only thing I can clearly see is the Devils smile.
Nataiella (2006)