Accidental Poet

I Ask of You Jesus

Please hear me Jesus

I know you love me

And you know that I love you

But sometimes

I just don’t know what to do

My life has always been

In need of confidence

I didn’t know how

To have faith in myself

I didn’t know what it meant

To believe in myself

The key to unlocking

And opening every door

My father wanted

So much more for me

Hard for him to know what I wanted

When even I didn’t know myself

All I ever wanted

Was to be not better than anyone else

Just better than I was

The best that I could be

Better at sports

To know my friendships were real

For the girl who lives in my heart

Was happy to be there

A chosen career making me successful

I don’t know why I couldn’t see

 What I needed to see

The answer to all my questions

Still, I feel that blindness

Unsure of myself

The final missing piece

Of an unfinished puzzle

I don’t expect anything

Of which I don’t deserve

I feel like I’m in between

The extremes of indecision

Even these words I now write

I don’t know why

I Ask of You Jesus