oh kay

the only man

your cigarette smoke consumes me

filling my heart with your fumes  

burning my eyes

 causing little droplets to build up walls,

blocking my view of anything other than you

 

my brain has crumbled to a small mound of dust

my fingers are stiff

because I know they won\'t be touching your pale skin

 

you showed me what it was to be loved

to be wanted and cherished 

but I was simply a moth drawn to a blue light

 

who am I to love if not you?

who will love me if not you?