Since I first moved on to Bus 22 with whom I now call my Ride or Die (Lilzz) and Hayden who I call my boyfriend I found the 2 most important people in my life that make me the happiest I have been in years. I remember when I first moved on that bus I was known as \"new girl\" for quite some time because I was new to the bus. I also remember when Me, Hayden, And Lilzz got in trouble for getting red ink all over seat 14, but its okay because that memory is with people I love so I forgive them. I am so happy with my life, I am comfortable with the people surrounding me, they make me happier than I have in a very long time. I don\'t wanna ever lose Lilzz or Hayden bc i love them soo much and I don\'t wanna ruin that with them. They are the loves of my life and I would quite literally die if something happened to either of them and I never said stuff like that so you know I mean it when I say it to my Best friend in the whole world. I would die for both of them and do stuff for them a million times over again just to make them happy and loved. And I know they would do the same for me that\'s what I love bout them. They are my favorite people in the whole wide world and I would do anything for Lilzz and Hayden. I would do absolutely anything to keep them happy, like Hayden certain things make him happy like me (duh der) and his friends, and Lilzz its between me and John but I understand that she loves him and I would never take that away from her because I wouldn\'t want anyone to take Hayden away from me because I love Hayden so much. The point is I love Hayden and Lillie in different ways but equally. Hayden: Makes me happier, puts a smile on my face all the time, cares about me. Like on Valentines Day he did something that no one has ever done for me which was put thought into me and get me stuff which made me cry later because i don\'t wanna lose someone like that, I don\'t wanna hurt that either. Lilzz: Makes me whole again, deals with me when I can\'t deal with myself, understands me like no one else, and LOVES me like no one else. Lilzz words do hurt but im here for you and the doctors didn\'t waste their time on you otherwise i wouldn\'t have an amazing best friend who put me this amazing boyfriend of mine and just and amazing Best friend whom will always be my wife, aunt of my children, maid of honor, and my sister even if we aren\'t biologically sisters I will always consider you as my sister. Hayden you will always be the love of my life, hopefully we will last and hopefully you will be the one i read my vowels to, the father of my children, my soulmate, best friend, and the last. I love you guys soo much.