“Why so sad?”
“What\'s wrong with you?”
“Why are you mad?”
“If I were you-”
But you\'re not
You\'re not me
You don\'t know how hard I fought
To stop breaking
I know it wasn\'t me fault
And not once, at all
Have I been faking
You say its okay
But how often is that true?
You say these things
As if their the truth
But what if I said that to you?
That it\'s alright
Everything will be fine
When you\'re clearly broken
Are my words just tokens?
Tokens used to earn a prize
To make you feel better about your own lives
And you ask why I roll my eyes
When you tell me all these lies
Well, I\'ve had enough
You heard me, I\'m done
Is what I want to say
But I\'m a people pleaser, all the way
But every once in awhile
I won\'t smile
My happiness will fade
Along with my false hope
Because I really have nothing to use to cope
Don\'t ask me why because I don\'t know
I don\'t actually know why I do what I do
Or even say what I say
I do know that I have loose screws
And I can\'t seem to find my place
I know how I feel
And I know it\'s real
The feeling that I don\'t matter
And this is why my glass heart will shatter
When I feel like this
The lights start to flicker
When I mutter sometimes
It\'s because I don\'t like saying things like this
After the flicker of the lights, the door begins to crack
And as I open it
I see flashbacks of the past
As I open the door
I see it more and more
The past helps my future become clear
And for a period of time, I don\'t feel any fear
I actually feel safe, in fact
Even though it doesn\'t last long
I\'m taken back
Then the door is gone
And I\'m back to feeling sad
That\'s why I\'m so angry when say things like that
When you say “If I were you”
I know you mean well
But if you were me you\'d feel this way too
You don\'t know how this feels or how I felt
While I was breaking
I didn\'t feel whole
It was like they were taking
A part of my soul
Before I was broken
My heart wasn\'t frozen
But that\'s was before you asked
“Why so sad”