Alone in the light, i contemplate,
I wear mask on my face,
As though inside my head I’m sane.
Troubles hunt my mind,
Dreams once vivid, now hard to find.
Fear clings right on my skin.
I am afraid of what’s next, how life will be.
I danced with the devil and I was ruined,
That was a consequence of my misdoings,
each step I took, each sashay bore a burden .
I had no plans for cha- chas, I was trapped,
innocent but I still paid the price.
I once had hopes,
Now they fade in the fog of my fear.
Everything else feels far away
When you are standing on the edge
On the edge where a single step will lead to death
Love the only tether, the only pull from that edge
My mind is drowning in questions
The people around ask me more of those
Fear has robbed me of my smile
They see a girl trapped in cloudy shadows
They wonder what could be the cause
I lie that I am okay , that I am fine.
I’m drowning in silence,
I write so that I could be heard,
As though I am saying a prayer.
I want my life to be okay again.