19 years of living this way
18 months of self hate
17 years of playing these games
16 years of waiting for things to change
15 months of hurt
14 weeks of feeling like dirt
13 days of doing the same thing
12 days of doing something different the same way
11 years of wishing for people to stay
10 years of giving up
9 years of running out of luck
8 dreams that have been killed
7 separate holes that need to be filled
6 years of agony
5 years of pain
4 years of hope that\'s unwavering
3 years of a dying flame
2 different types of faith, both not fading
1 life time of fearing for the worst
0 ways for me to make a difference in this world