I am frightened !
They say we are all in danger.
The Master has enemies and I fear they are closing in.
I feel betrayed.
He promised us fame and glory,
A mansion to live in just like a nobleman.
Did he not tell us
That in his fathers own house there were many mansions ?
Would someone so wealthy disown their own son ?
Then he lied.
He must have done
So I owe him no loyalty.
I will go to the priests and strike a bargain
I want no more to do with this.
It is not worth losing my life for.
It has been arranged.
I am to be given thirty pieces of silver for my troubles.
We will meet in the Gardens and I will acknowledge him with a kiss.
There is my Master now.
The soldiers are watching and waiting for my signal.
Jesus of Nazareth looks straight at me and smiles.
I falter, and turmoil fills my heart.
That smile. So full of love and compassion.
He knows ! My Master knows what is to happen.
I cannot do it.
I have changed my mind.
I cannot betray a man who “knows” and yet still loves me.
I meet the Master`s eyes and sorrow and shame fill my heart.
I fling the curs`ed silver to the ground
And walk away.
I want no part of this.
My Lord, my Master, truly is the Son of God.
I will not deliver him to his tormentors.
I shout my glad news to the heavens.
Jesus lives!
HALLELUIAH! Praise his name!
Jan Wharton (June 2012)