Have you ever found yourself arguing with god ?
Just screaming internally at our maker with no response to your grievances. Slowly it building inside you until you’re almost yelling out loud foaming at the mouth. Once the anger subsides a kind of begging and bargaining starts as you try and find purpose in the madness that consumes everyday. The smallest sign would serve to bring a sense of relief but there never as bold as you need to be reassured in fight for tomorrow.