I stopped it
right there
in my mind
between one tear
and the next blink.
The world cracked still.
Like God forgot the script.
Like clocks
finally choked on their lies.
And I walked
barefoot,
through the frozen ache of light
curling like fog around a laugh
you almost had.
I tasted
the rain before it hit the ground,
let it linger on my tongue
like the names I never said.
Kissed the steam
off your coffee cup
and whispered secrets
to the dust motes in your room
they listened better than people ever did,
I held your smell in my nose,
drowning in each scent.
A hummingbird mid-flap,
stuck between flight and forever
I kissed it too.
Soft as ambition
dying in a cold city.
I held a flower
for a thousand years.
It never withered.
My hand did.
I found love
locked in the way your lip curled
right before goodbye.
I held that moment
until my own heart cracked
like glass under memory.
You think stopping time heals?
No.
It just slows the pain
to a crawl
so you can savor it.
I walked through lovers
like churches.
Empty.
Sacred.
Haunted by prayers
no one answers anymore.
I touched your cheek,
and you didn’t flinch.
First time.
Last time.
Every time.
I bent over my younger self
still full of fire and delusion.
Didn’t wake him.
Didn’t warn him.
He needed the fall.
We always need the fall.
If I lived forever,
I’d write poems on comet tails
and stitch stars
into the silence.
But I’d still miss you.
Every hour.
Of every never-ending day.
Time isn’t the enemy
it’s the proof
we ever mattered.
But still
in that breathless hush
where nothing moved
I kissed the sky,
held the world in my palm,
and told it:
“Stay here.
Don’t move.
Just let me feel
everything
before it’s gone.”
in the moment
forever.