I love you…
Is the most important thing I’ll say so I wanted to start with that.
It’s also one of the few things I’ve said to you that I have no desire to take back.
Plenty other moments I wish I could relive and redirect,
Recreate memories to replace ones i pray you forget.
Both of us too strong to be weak for each other,
Moving too fast to slow down and truly get to know one another.
We showed each other our worst sides.
So in a sense we were our own worst enemies….
Yet and still I want to fight for you with every fiber of my being,
Brain screaming to let go, heart doing all but agreeing.
bleeding.
out.
Im at war with myself…
And nobody else…to be honest.
What do you do when your joy and pain derive from the same source,
And futile attempts to separate them only makes everything worse…
I don’t know,
But
I love you….