How many times
Have I burnt myself
And others
In the quest to be free
From suffer-
-ing?
It\'s been said
People in the deep end
Of addictions
Start fetishizing
Their own self-destruction
A temporary high arises
From the inverted attempt
At self-annhiliation
Some say in deep meditation
An indescribable joy
Arises
When the limited self
Is annhi-
-lated