I\'m 19 years into this life of mine
I\'ve gotten this far
I\'m so quiet it\'s like I\'m a mime
I\'m trying to be a torch in the dark
I\'m trying for everyone else
I just wish I could try for myself
I had a father but I won\'t get into that
I hate my body and the way I act
I\'m not that bad, right?
I don\'t get into fights
I speak up for my friends
I don\'t speak up for myself
I\'d rather suffer till the end
I\'ll do that before asking for help
I think I shouldn\'t
I know I would
I think I should
I know I wouldn\'t
I\'m 19 years into this life
I\'m still pretending everything\'s fine