I tried so hard to lose myself away from you so that my true self could never be found.
I hid within all my dark shadows so that people would be to scared to come around.
Me wanting to be close to another quickly drowned in that sinking boat before my mother.
And everyone that was at her funeral kept telling me that I needed to stick with my brother.
I began trying to numb all of my pain but it never worked then but now I found what does.
Christ forgave me for all of my sins and since then life for me has not been the same.
It wasn’t anything personal against you bro but against me I admit that it really was.
So with each of those empty bottles I tried hard to bottle all of these feelings up.
But refreshed another lost cause because this mind of mine thinks and feels way to much.
So I roamed to stay out of reach like long-distance phone calls to me trying to stay in touch.
I stayed busy working so that my pain could pay my pride to never ask you for help.
Christ forgave me for all of my sins and since then life for me has not been the same.
And I hope that you really don’t feel me but if you do then please tell me how I felt.
Before I could get to where I am now, I had to live in a harder place than ever before.
Until Christ saved me from myself so it’s in Christ where that life would forever restore.
Only after I exited my work vehicle to kneel down on the ground and thank God for.
This life following Christ where I no longer chase those shallow worldly desires anymore.
Christ forgave me for all of my sins and since then life for me has not been the same.
And even though he was right in front of me the whole time it was from him I tried to hide.
You know that even though I never acknowledged him there from me he never left my side.
Just know I really couldn’t make it without him bro regardless of how hard that I had tried.
Although we thought I was doing good before I realized it was prideful pain that lied.
And if I hadn’t parked and knelt down on Cassandra Road for me to repent for every sin.
Christ forgave me for all of my sins and since then life for me has not been the same.
Then I’d continue in that vicious cycle only to make the same old new mistakes again.
Because I could never forgive myself regardless of how hard that I tried to pretend.
My mistakes always blew back up in my face like grains of sand flying in a gust of wind.
The pressure to follow Jesus tried to break me down like no person should ever bend.
Like 70 times 7 test she failed to steal for him to see that I would forgive a bad friend.
Christ forgave me for all of my sins and since then life for me has not been the same.
From prayers of forgiveness is where my heartfelt mistakes allowed this new life to begin.
I was not worthy to be dealt a new hand that he used to lift me up from a deep end.
But he can show you better than I can tell you when mended hearts reconcile his name.
A clue is in a book that sold the most copies all time but was never written for fame.
And even though I didn’t invite him there way back then I’m so blessed that he came.
Because Christ forgave my sins and since then life for me has not been the same.