vicecream

Never a Dull Moment

Suddenly

I realized that I expect to grow old.

 

I suppose this expectation creeps in along the sides of my mind

with every routine

every bill come and gone

every plan for \"someday\"

 

but now and then

I get shaken awake

by something so simple

so phenomenal

like the sunlight and breeze and birdsong

pouring in through my kitchen window

over my sink full of unwashed dishes

 

and suddenly I know

quake with the knowing

that it\'s not forever

 

All. Things. End.

 

And suddenly This Window

has thrown open my very heart

 

my eyes, my mouth, my ears and pores

all stretching w i d e 

in agonizing want

of the Now

to stream into me like a waterfall

some deep dark core of me cries out

to be saturated with it

to drink it in until I can\'t breathe

for every one of my cells to blaze with this life

 

because soon-

all too soon,

it will be gone.