I can still feel your presence.
All this time, I thought it was completely gone,
but no — it\'s always dwelled here.
It has been here the whole time.
I didn\'t forget any of it;
I just got used to not having it around.
The feeling of denying everything —
even if it still brings pain
whenever it touches me again.
I might lose it,
I might return to what once wounded me.
How can I escape something that ties me up?
How can I deny the pain that, in vain, lifts me up?