Amandatoriii

The Weight of Almost

I arrived like a question

half-swallowed,

wearing silence like a shield.

Everything I touched,

I expected to break.

Everything I said,

I rehearsed in apology.

 

There was a time

I only spoke in exits—

built doors out of distance,

named it safety.

But some kind of warmth

stood still

when I backed away.

 

Not a fire,

not a blaze,

just something that stayed lit

even when I dimmed.

 

It didn’t ask me to be brave.

Didn’t beg me to be soft.

It waited,

quiet as the moment

before the truth

is finally told.

 

And maybe I was still trembling.

Maybe I still counted

every heartbeat

like a warning.

But something in the way

it never left

taught me

how to stay.