I can\'t stand so much light
There are screams in the water
And the music has sunk
Deep in my chest
Like a bird that won\'t stop crashing.
There\'s a woman
A breathing statue
A beautiful shadow
That stares at me with the hunger of a mirror.
Is she looking at me?
Or did I invent her through gritted teeth?
She comes down
As if she were stepping on my skull
As if she were coming down to kill me
Or to kiss me
Or to pull me out of my body
And leave me floating
Like a punctured balloon
Like a small, drugged-up god.
She is death
dressed for a party.
She is love
With soulless eyes.
She is a song
I don\'t want to stop listening to
But she\'s breaking my heart
With every beat.
I want to go
But I\'m afraid
Of coming back with an empty face
Or not coming back
And not knowing
I left.