rebellion_in_sanity

And .... I Seek

In dazzling light of day
Fate handed me a crushing defeat
Cinders of my aspirations
Went flying in the wind

 

With an oblique rupture 
I watched the Sun bleed into horizon, 
With blood of many chroma,
On its way to oblivion
 
Life and Hope are conjoined twins
Teachers taught me in school  
Thick walls reverberated with teaching—  
One must live with unshakable beliefs

 

Self-proclaimed incarnations of God
Chanted in pious voices
\"Seek God, surrender unto Thee,
Ask for forgiveness 
Pray your slate be cleaned\"

 

Something stirred deep inside 
Truth was the blood of life
Searched for it far and wide
Managed only fleeting glimpses 
Like mirages under the punishing sky

 

Lost my voice, lost my mind 
Lost my strength to frame a smile. 
Been on a hunt for you 
One hallowed house to the next -
Where I believed I would find
Your mercy, 
Your guidance, 
Your comforting touch;
All I could find were empty nests

 

Searched for your divine abode
At temples, mosques, churches, synagogues.
Found no homes, only palaces
Trying to outshine each other in opulence 

 

In those places, did I find 
Being poor was a sin
So many Lords infested those places
Acting like feudal Gentries;
The only thing I couldn\'t find
I couldn\'t find Thee 

 

I was taught many things
I was told those were the truths
Did they teach me
How to live through embers of anguish?  
Or,
How could I bear the burden of
Never to have known the truth?

 

I know God, 
In my heart I do sense it so strong 
You are there somewhere for us
But you were not where they told me
You were

 

O God in you I believe 
From you my faith will never veer
I was born to wander in the wild
Bless me O\' God -
Bless me with strength,
Bless me with faith 
Never to abandon the search for You
Till the end of my time

 

Yes, I am a wanderer in space
My mind wanders through the maze of time
Is certainty worthwhile to chase
Or should I embrace incertitude being the essence of life?

 

Through the fog of uncertainty 
The only certainty that I can see -
If You were a Lord like a landed gentry
In You, I will find no solace and peace

 

God you are my Lord
Not the earthly Lords that I have seen
You are the Lord who derives no pleasure 
In putting us in chains
You are the Lord who sets us free

 

Though, I am not certain of many things 
But one has shaken my belief 
You guided us to seek wealth of heart
Why in your houses
It is Gold that they seek?