well its been a lot
all the pain and emotions
but the lock to my heart has rotted
and I can feel the last drops of your poison
fading from my mind
its a strange feeling now, almost numb
like I crashed my car and just got out the hospital
but sweeter than a plum
because the weight of your memory
isn\'t dragging me down anymore
its like I\'ve been broken away from a reverie
and now I can finally enjoy the sunset and more
I can finally feel again
I can draw, play piano, and write
and now my heart feels right
not upside down
not turned around
I feel free
I feel like me
I look at the person in the mirror and don\'t scream
but I\'ll still take some time to love
not just others, but myself
since I\'m so used to loving everyone else
and you\'re still in my memory
but its more like a bittersweet symphony
no longer like a void in my chest
just something that\'s there but not quite at rest
does that make sense?
I\'ve been broken, and shattered
I\'ve let my mind walk on a tightrope in the darkness and blood
and I let you break me more in ways that have left me scattered
but then I remember, I was just trying to show the world that even a monster could be loved