The Urge to Kill.
The need inside for me to kill him is getting ever strong.
Even though I know it will not change what has been done.
I have an increasing urge to right the wrongs of the past.
So, at last, I can stop wearing this eternal fake mask.
There was a time we were such unbreakable friends.
Somehow, he has managed to let me down again.
Side by side we travelled for many troubled years.
Now it is only him who is responsible for all my fears.
Daily he haunts me and constantly heightens the pain.
Tried to forget memories he makes me relive again.
No more can he be my trusted secret safe confident.
Now he has become the root of all my problems.
We have been through everything in my life together.
Now I realise, this relationship just cannot go on forever.
He keeps forcing and dragging me back to where it began.
His constant support I can no longer truly depend.
Our trusted friendship has sadly come to a bitter end.
He still relentlessly tries to play those emotional games.
To kill this man, would leave a giant vacuum inside.
Though it is a decision I have had to make, but is it right
Would it be a crime to take this Ex lifelong friend’s life.
Is it possible it would help another man to survive.
Tobani