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You\'re Not In Control Anymore

 

You’ve hurt me so much,  

It’s still painful. 

I’ve been degraded,  

Let Down,  

Yelled at,  

Neglected... 

I haven’t processed them. 

 

Trying to talk to you,  

Is frustrating -  

I get nowhere with you. 

You’re like a wall,  

So I stop trying. 

 

I think you’re upset at yourself,  

You’ve been getting upset at me,  

For the little things,  

Oftentimes,  

For things out of my control. 

 

I say, “I love you,” I love you,  

But there needs to be distance between us. 

I have to leave in order to grow. 

I need to leave to prcoess. 

 

After process,  

Comes healing. 

After healing,  

Comes peace. 

 

I take control over my life,  

Not you. 

I take responsibility,  

Unlike you. 

 

As I close this chapter,  

I’ll open a new one. 

Until then,  

I’ll tolerate you.