I have come to a realization that truly no one cares
At least not in the regards I hold them up to…
We give people too much power and credit that we fail to realize that it don’t matter
But I do appreciate positive criticism any day.
Now back to what I was saying
There’s one line I heard that said, “No one can make you feel inferior, without your consent.”
That line ate can’t lie
SO I dug deep and thought,
I can’t remember people\'s opinions ever hurting me DEEPLY
I mean yea, it probably hurt for a day or two
But it wasn’t my feelings that were hurt, but my pride.
However,
I found the culprit.
The person that was really causing damage.
It was me.
It was me hurting me
and if I’m being honest it’s still currently a job I seem to do daily.
Now I’m realizing
I am the self critic
I am the one hating on me
I am the one that can’t stand me
I am the one that makes me feel inferior
My question is now that I know it’s me, how do I stop giving myself consent?
How do I stop myself from doing the only thing I seem to be very good at?
When faced with such a realization, how does one fix this?
This is painful,
The one person I’m supposed to rely on.
The one person that is supposed to have my back can’t even stand me.
If I myself reject me,
Who can accept me?
And the worst part is I ain’t even getting paid, like it’s all voluntary.
It’s kind of funny now that I think about it…