My love cannot be replaced.
You will search for me -
In every girl you meet
After me.
You’ll see my face,
But never hear my voice.
You’ll whisper my name,
But it won’t feel the same.
No warmth within another’s embrace,
No spark when you kiss her face.
No one else will hold your gaze
Or light your soul in quite the same blaze.
You’ll scour every corner
Of God’s green earth -
But you won’t find me.
You may try to erase me
From your mind,
But I’ll linger
Like the scent of a flame long gone.
There will be a hollow in your chest - so raw, so unforgiving -
Where my love used to live, echoing in your silence.
You won’t meet another’s eyes
Without seeing mine.
You won’t say “I love you”
Without my memory
Clawing its way through the silence.
I am irreplaceable -
But you were far too blind
To understand that.
I meant more
Than you ever let on.
Your pride,
Your wilful ignorance -
They cost you the only girl
You were ever truly willing
To fight for.
So go.
Seek another
Who might spark the same fire -
But she won’t.
She won’t be me.
She won’t carry the flames
That made you fall in love
For the first time -
That ignited a fire
Within your heart and soul,
Fuelled by a love so fierce it burned you raw,
Your love for me -
The flames
That drew you back
Again and again
And again.
And before your ego soars
To the highest of heavens -
Remember the nights
You begged to be mine again.
Remember the trembling,
The breaking,
The pleading.
And most importantly - remember to humble yourself.
- JJ