I wish I knew what it was to be still
For this mind to not spin in circles
A Ferris wheel for every negative thought
No big red button to make the ride stop
And no light for the good to chase
I want to trust in those who hold my heart
But my own voice is the loudest I hear
Constantly telling me I\'m not enough
Ever-present despite your steady love
In these moments I don\'t want to die
I just don\'t know how to turn myself off
Reassurances never enough in a broken mind
As I look for the crack in your smile
With every I love you stated