How do I stop thinking?
How do I silence the feeling?
I never believed—
Never wanted to believe.
I saw the well,
Dark and deep,
And still,
I chose to fall.
I fell,
And forgot who I was.
I fell,
And forgot I was afraid.
I fell freely,
Because your arms
Promised safety.
You made me live
The love I always loathed.
Oh, how beautiful it seemed—
For a moment.
I wandered through you
With my heart wide open,
And locked my mind
In the dark.
I went blind,
While your eyes opened.
You devoured my deepest fear
And returned it
Bitten,
Bitter,
Into my mouth.
You carved through my scars
Until they bled fresh,
Took my hand
And led me back
Into the nightmares
I fought to forget.
Now I relive them—
Each day,
Each night,
On a loop
That never ends.
My mind is quiet.
Too quiet.
And my heart—
My heart is still screaming.
You found me whole.
And you left me
In pieces.