Mindful eating:
Three things you’re grateful
For, two things that will make
Today great, and a positive
Affirmation.
Mindful eating;
A practice I was taught in
Rehab to learn to let myself
Live through tastes, flavors,
Foods and beyond, to find
Meaning in the knife and fork.
Mindful eating:
No phones,
No scales,
No distractions,
No throwing up,
No fasting.
Mindful eating;
I still use it sometimes,
But when I can’t eat I’ll go
On my phone, do something to
Prevent myself from counting
The calories of a granola bar (100).
Mindful eating:
Slow down,
What’s your stomach saying?
Are you full yet,
Are you going to ignore that
Until you feel miserable?
My psychiatrist last week told my
Mom to weigh me every two weeks;
I’m already 184.1 pounds but losing
Weight is clearly a horrible thing.
I’m definitely not losing weight to
Better myself, but instead to starve.
Tonight I ate my five steak bites and
Bowl of blueberries; I’m trying
To respect my body after eating an
Unhealthy breakfast and still being
Full from lunch, but no:
“I’m weighing you tomorrow!”
I’ve succumbed to an eating disorder in
The past; I’m trying to fix myself,
To not fast. I’m fourteen and I weigh
A lot; I know, it shows; my body is
Often a punchline and Max S. wouldn’t
Stop talking about it in math.
I guess I was never diagnosed;
I felt no need to be, it was clear to see
That five hundred calories wasn’t healthy
And going two days without food isn’t a
Good way to cope, especially when being
Skinny was my only hope.
It still is;
A little different this time.
I’m trying, I didn’t check the
Label on the ham I had for
Lunch and I’m not weighing myself;
Not making excuses for shitty health.
Mindful eating:
Skinny isn’t my only goal;
I’m eating until I feel comfortably
Full; no less or more.
I’m eating in a way that’s right for me.
I’m eating for me.