i am sitting in my boyfriends room
alone
he’s out working
and i am writing
by his window
i can hear wind chimes
and the room is so light
everything here
is so full of light
this is the only place
i genuinely feel calm
i can’t help but smile
because wow… i am calm
i don’t want to run
there is nothing to run from
his grandmother
just showed me her jewellery collection
i haven’t felt this included
with anyone
i still have six hours
until he comes home
but i don’t really feel alone
how long i ached to be held
well
right now, i am not
but i cannot feel absence
only love
he took me home impulsively
and i held my breath
as he asked if i could stay
to which his grandparents said
“of course, that’s okay
how many days?
is there anything you need?
have you eaten?
make yourself at home!”
you can see, i’m sure
why i do not feel alone
even when you aren’t here
you are
you don’t feel far
and being here makes me realise
my eyes haven’t cried
the bad thoughts
haven’t crossed my mind
i feel so soft
i feel so mellow
and all this stemmed from a
“hello
i love your chains
wanna play monopoly someday?”
we still haven’t played
just you wait
until you return
when i will remind you
how i am going to win
owen
i look at you
and know that i’ve won.
16:13pm - 25/07/25.