I can\'t sleep tonight.
Just like I couldn\'t last night.
the feeling of being lost... of losing you.
Every time I close my eyes, a strange, aching feeling grips me Even when I try not to think about it, the nightmares find me. Nightmares of you hurting me in ways I never imagined, cheating... shattering me beyond repair. It freaks me out. Leaves me cold, numb, like I\'m right back at the place I started alone and broken. I don\'t know how to explain this weight. It\'s too much. Too heavy for my chest, too loud for my silence.
I don\'t want these dreams.
Not tonight.
Not tomorrow.
Not ever.
I just want to let this go.
I want to breathe again without feeling like everything inside me is cracked.
Because every time I think of it, the numbness wins. The rain outside is pouring
each drop feels like a scream in my ears.
The silence feels deafening.
I cannot sleep tonight...