Imprimir Conversations we never had. by Aa Harvey

Conversations we never had.

I could sink into your eyes,

Just to be blown away by your smile.

I want you.

I need you,

To feel what I feel.

Without you I am empty,

Mile after mile.

I need to know if this is fiction,

Or whether it could become real.

I know thinking of you as perfect is way down the line,

But line after line that’s what I wanted to write.

If I had three wishes, they would all be let her be mine.

When I peer into the darkness,

I hope somehow I see your light.

I would come off obsessive if I told you my truths,

But the truth is you are beautiful and I do like you.

If I had to lie, I’d say I wasn’t thinking of you everyday,

For the past fortnight,

For some reason I miss you.

It’s the hope that kills me,

The lust is there,

But you give me thrills,

And I think I truly care,

But what do I know? This is all new to me.

I never truly saw you until now.

I never realised I was empty.

You could be the love that makes me complete,

Or you are probably married,

Or something, or something.

You would run a mile if I showed you the real me,

Because we’ve only just met and we’re not even a thing.

But this poem is about things we never say.

You will walk out of my life without ever knowing what I feel,

And that could be seen as a good thing in a whole heap of ways,

So I keep my silence, even though my heart you steal.

I over exaggerate my desire for her,

For she is beauty personified, that much is clear.

I would be sad if my need to be with her was spurned,

And all just because I want her to be near.

So all these things I never said,

Because you probably would not ever say yes,

If I asked could you love me for worst or best?

So I keep my love for you safely locked inside my head.