Dear God
Everyone gets their chance
Except me
And it is the fault of the world
I know that you are fighting for me
But I chose this shitty life
And I have to live with it
I am not worthy of good things
So I decided to take myself out
I don\'t know
Why I\'m still on this earth
But I don\'t deserve to be here
Dear God,
I don\'t have a chance in life
I never have
But why do you keep me here
When I don\'t belong here?
Please free me of my misery
Everyone is doing good
Except me
I wish me and Jerry
Would both die in a car accident
Then we can die together
I don\'t want to die alone
For so many years now
I\'ve wanted to die
But you won\'t let me, why?
I don\'t want to pay that dental bill
God, I love you, but
What if death is what I want?
I want to die so bad...
Let me explain this to you,
The whole world hates me
Except you,
So why are you still
Holding on to a failure
Who doesn\'t mean
Anything to the world?
Why are you still
Holding on to me
When I don\'t even
Deserve to live?
So this is my suicide note,
Please let me go...
I don\'t mean anything to anyone
For I am no one
And I am going to continue drinking
Until I can\'t anymore...
I try everything in my power to take care
Of my teeth
But nothing is good enough
In my heart
I don\'t think I\'m good enough for you
For you are a God of high standards
And I am no one
I am a Trotter
And the Trotter family is cursed
What am I to do
When I feel like I failed
As a daughter?
I am not worthy of your love
And I don\'t believe
In the devil
I am not a good person
I am no one
I want to die
Please take me out
Or I will take myself out
Either way
We will be both happy
No one in this world has ever loved me
And no one ever will
And this is my suicide note
To you and the world
I never stood a chance
So please let me
Die at 42
I don\'t belong in this world
And you know that
Everything I have touched
Has turned to failure
I am not happy being me
There is no empathy for the empath
Thank you
And I hope you consider my request.