Silence creeps on back, it
Numbs all my fears
Someone tell me I\'m okay
I built up some reason, but
My heart had no will
The better part of me couldnt stay
Emotions swell like a balloon, it
Constricts the surrounding air
I dont even know who I am
The summer feels so cold, and
Winter no longer warms the soul
Living doesnt feel like my friend
Its not like I want to
I want to find my way through
The bottom feels so far down
Where\'s the way out?
When you look at me, do you see
A glimmer of hope
Or the trouble in my eyes?
The light I once cherished, now
Withered with age
Hope fell out of sight
Even around those I love, I
Feel so numb
I wish it wasnt so
Maybe I dont feel deserving, or
Maybe its my disease
I dont even know
I dont even know
But its not like I want to
I want to find a way through
And to feel myself again
If I could find a way out
Whats ahead of me, in
The next several years?
Where am I to go?
Will you miss me if I left, or
Forget I ever was?
I dont even know
I dont even know