“Stop lying to yourself
You don’t like me
You don’t love me
Like you say you do
I’m broken
Shattered
Beyond repair
Yet you stay
You think you like me
You think you’re staying
But you’ll leave
Just like everyone else has.”
“I’m sorry
I really am
I don’t know what got into me
I’m sorry I got mad
I’m sorry I didn’t believe you
I overreacted
I’m okay now”
My mind is split in two
One side is dark and filled with hatred
The other side
The happier side
Tried to stop the depressive side
From making me feel that way
And to make me feel
Happy or some shit like that
I mostly feel happy
I think
Unless that side is masking
The self-hatred
The sadness
The pain
To keep me from knowing the truth
Of how I feel
Sometimes I feel sad
It’s up and down
Like they push each other off the pedestal in my mind
Built for more than one
So they could have the spotlight
And not the other
One I’d rather have more
My happy side makes people happy
Makes people laugh
Makes my parents happy
My other side makes my mom say I’m overreacting
That I’m annoying
Makes my dad yell at me
Makes him say
He’ll kick me out when I turn 18
Makes people think I’m less than
More than they already think
I’m overdramatic
Aren’t I?
It’s all in my head
Maybe I’m just overthinking
Maybe it’s normal to feel this way
But I will never know though
Because you can’t see someone’s mind split in two