Unworthy...
Unworthy...
God...I’ve backslidden.
My feet have stepped
into works of unrighteousness.
My hands have carried
off tasks of my carnality.
My lips have spewed
words of impurity and blasphemy.
My eyes have gazed
upon the next exertion of my lusts.
My ears have heedlessly listened
to expressions of hedonism.
My thoughts have been the headquarters
of my turpitudes...
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...Heavenly Father, where do I begin to confess?
I hurt people: strangers, family, and friends...
I’ve walked away when they pleaded.
I’ve tucked away aid when they begged.
I’ve reprehended their concerns when they cried.
I’ve diverted my attention elsewhere when they anguished.
I’ve tuned out their voices when they sobbed.
I’ve riveted my absorption elsewhere when they travailed.
I hurt myself...
I’ve treaded blindly towards my demise.
I’ve built devices delightfully to my detriment.
I’ve boasted broadly to my dissolution.
I’ve glanced indifferently to my despair.
I’ve harkened incautiously to my delusions.
I’ve contemplated aimlessly to my destruction.
I hurt You...
I’ve ran swiftly from Your service.
I’ve withheld tithes deliberately in spite of Your blessings.
I’ve spoken vainfully about Your Great Name.
I’ve looked gleefully upon acts of lewdness, ignoring Your convictions.
I’ve listened unconcernedly to Your Holiness being defamed.
I’ve meditated pompously about my future, with You as an afterthought.
Jesus, I will profess...
My motives were selfish and malicious.
My actions were self-indulgent and malignant.
My worldviews were self-centered and materialistic.
I’ve abandoned Faith...
...I’ve neglected Scripture...
...I’ve forfeited prayer...
...I’ve departed from church...
...I’ve left my brethren...
...I’ve bailed out on the Great Commission.
Holy Spirit, I will admit...
I’m a steward that disregarded God’s call for faithfulness.
I’m a disciple that dismantled Christ’s desire for fellowship.
I’m a believer that disobeyed Your Command for fruitfulness...
...Who have I become?
...What have I lost?
...Where does this go?
...When does this end?
...Why did I continue this?
How did I forget the cross?
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Broken...I’m broken, Lord...
...I don’t deserve another Breath of Life...
...I don’t deserve to be pardoned for law-breaking...
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...I just want this relationship renewed...
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Thanks...I thank You...
Only through You, I am able
to rebuild my fragmented relationships.
Through You, I am able
to restart Your Plans for my life.
You, are able
to relieve all of my shame.
I can’t comprehend why I’m still loved by You...
...Because I will never understand Your Mercy and Your Grace...
...Father God, let’s continue on Your Plan from where I abandoned You.
Amen.