I live in constant fear.
What a terrible place to be.
Void of the natural essence of life.
Worrying every second that something bad is about to happen.
That life is not in my favor.
That I am wrong and thus deemed to be emotionally tortured, singled out, and despised.
What a terrible place to be.
In a state of unmerciful disdain.
A never ending hell all my own.
To go to sleep and wake up only to face it all over again.
A day by day strife that sees no end. No absolution. No remediation. And no resolve.
An unmistakable hell.