Better luck next time. You can do it.
Just try harder. Put in more effort.
Echoes of these phrases singing in my mind,
I know I\'ve let them down.
\"Study for yourself and your future.\"
Like I haven\'t been burning out.
Like I don\'t spend each heartbeat in stress,
Tension seeping through my bones.
I stare at my grades one more time,
They\'re embarrassingly low.
Hard to say out loud, hard to swallow down,
It stays stuck in my throat.
I can\'t understand, I can\'t catch up.
Do better, they say.
How do I scream what I can\'t whisper?
How can I tell them I failed again?
Maybe the world can accept my failures,
But I don\'t think I ever will.
My incompetence feels like a mocking joke,
Laughing at my crippled state.
Yeah, I don\'t get these formulae,
How they\'re derived, why they\'re made.
These hypotheses make me cry,
Let me go, let me die.
I\'m done, I\'m tired, out of breath.
Losing hope, this is hard to get.
Challenging in a way I\'ve never seen,
I\'m weaker than I\'ve ever been.
All I want is a mentor.
A guide, a friend, a helping hand.
That I can ask these questions to,
Who won\'t judge behind those spectacled eyes.
Tell me how to see my goal,
When the path is foggy and full of coal.
When the failure burns me inside out,
Teach me how to play this role.
I am ambitious, but I\'ve failed a lot.
This is failure again, it hits hard.
I am brilliant, that I know,
But in these subjects, it doesn\'t show.
I dream of a world where I\'m all I want to be,
But damn, that is not reality.
I\'m tripping over myself, trying to catch up,
Stumbling over basic terms.
Failure once was hard. So was failure twice.
It\'s become countless now, this failure is a vice.
Failure again, is all I can say, until maybe one day,
In this world, I\'ll find my way.
-InsanelyHilarious