Zoe was travelling on a train to London from her hometown in Cardiff to visit some friends, it was 8:50am on an Autumn Thursday morning. Zoe felt she needed some time away from her work schedule and her hectic life,she wanted to forget her troubles and enjoy some quality time with her life long friends Holly,Maria and Kim who she had stayed intouch with from the day they all became friends on their first day of Secondary School over 28 years ago. Zoe had booked to stay with the girls in a hotel for a few days as they had planned to have a girlie time with some pampering going for spa\'s and makeovers,Shopping, Movie Nights and a meal together. Zoe was really looking forward to seeing them as her workload in her 9-5 office job had been over-stretching her lately and she was still getting over her breakup with her boyfriend Liam of 5years. Zoe felt this girlie break away would do her the Power of good. Zoe arrived at her destination at 10:45am she had a 30minute walk to the Hotel Where she was meeting the girls and checking into their rooms. Zoe was greeted by Maria and Kim to their rooms where they hugged eachother and Holly was already unpacking her bags in their Hotel room. After settling in and freshening up they all went down stairs to go for Coffee and a bite to eat in the bar. After a good long catch up they went into town and did abit of retail therapy for a few hours and decided to go for dinner later. The next day they had planned to go to a beauty salon for their pampering Spa Day. Maria,Kim and Holly had arranged to have a pool so they could spend some time in the pool with a glass of wine and music just to relax while having face masks and they later went to have their hair and makeup done before going for a meal and to a bar with some music and entertainment. While Zoe went to get some drinks there was a singer on stage and Zoe was instantly took by surprise as she recognized the voice straight away. She looked over to the stage and saw the Irish singer who she claimed was the Love of her life. Zoe went and sat with the girls telling them about who the singer was and they noticed how quickly he began to gaze at Zoe with a Twinkle in his eye when he caught sight of her. All this brought a host of memories back to Zoe\'s mind. The girls all made a bee line telling Zoe how he was basically Singing to her as if she was the Only one in the room. She kept denying it even though she secretly relished the attention as she was feeling quite Vulnerable and she was dealing with alot in her life. At the end of the evening the girls went back to the Hotel but Zoe was lingering around at the bar hoping the singer her ex boyfriend Ryan would join her. Around 11:00pm he came over to her and said Zoe I can\'t believe it\'s You. Zoe just looked at him and burst into tears. He quickly went up and put his arm around her Comforting her as he always was good at the Comfort thing and he said are you okay Zoe? He got them both a drink and they sat down and chatted after he wiped her tears away. How have you been Zoe He asked? Zoe explained she was on a mini break with her girlfriends to get away from her busy hectic life. She was also coming to terms with being 39 as she has always had a big fear of turning 40!! Ryan said Zoe \"You haven\'t changed You\'re still a Stunner more Radiant than ever!\" Zoe replied \"You always did have a way with words didn\'t you Ryan and You\'re still an Irish Charmer\" they got talking over a bottle of wine and they went on talking to the early hours of the morning. Zoe poured out her heart to Ryan and she told him how she had been in a relationship for the past 5years and broken up some months ago. She was finding it hard because her biggest fear was being 40 and being alone in Life! Ryan put his hand on her shoulder and said\' Zoe You\'ll never be on your own You are Beautiful inside and Out\"! Zoe looked up at him and said\" am I? Zoe had lost the inner confidence she used to have she felt lonely and vulnerable but somehow comforted by being in Ryan\'s familar company. Zoe was abit tipsy at this point but she said \"Ryan You were the Love of my Life\"
Ryan smiled and they hugged eachother. Zoe said She didn\'t want to go back to the hotel so late, in that moment Ryan said we could go back to my apartment if you like. Zoe agreed to go back to his apartment. They took a taxi to Ryan\'s apartment. He made them both a coffee at this point it was 3:45am but they seemed they had alot to talk about. While they were chatting Zoe asked about Ryan\'s life and his music and she couldn\'t help but ask if he had anyone special in his Life. He was abit dubious about it but he said there had been a few but none of them really had potential and with his music and travelling they didn\'t work out. Zoe was surprised as Ryan was a looker and a Charming guy. Then after awhile Zoe tried to get it out of him why none of his previous relationships worked out, he tried to brush it off and say oh well we had different life goals! Then he eventually told her Zoe none of them were You! In that moment Zoe leaned in and they went in for a Kiss. Zoe was flying high as a kite after that. Ryan said No one has the same passion as You Zoe. By this time it was 5:30am. Zoe said Why did we breakup Ryan can You remember? Ryan knew every detail, I had started doing gigs and travelling and You was home sick to go on the road travelling with me and I guess me being away for months on end while you were living in another town was too much to bear. Zoe said \" I know I was Young back then Ryan but I knew the day we met My Heart belonged to you\" Ryan started to say well we\'ve had abit to drink and You might not feel that way in the morning\" Zoe said Ryan it is morning it\'s 6:30am. Ryan said well So it is, But what does this mean? Zoe said well I do want to see you again Ryan I\'m staying at the ParkHotel till Monday. So they exchanged mobile numbers and Zoe went back to the Hotel and saw the girls apologised that she didn\'t come back to them. She explained she was talking all night so she was going to catch up on some sleep for the day which kind of changed their plans as a girlie group. But the other three Holly,Kim and Maria went into the town and did some sight seeing for the day but they could see a spark in Zoe\'s eyes like a light had gone back in her. They knew how down she had been since her breakup with Liam. Zoe slept through the afternoon and decided to watch a movie when she woke up it ended up being a Love story and how two childhood sweethearts fell inLove and knew they were meant to be together. It made Zoe think more about Ryan which was helping her take her mind off of Liam. Zoe knew Liam had hurt her but he gave her what she wanted whereas Ryan always gave her what she needed Love,Affection and alot of Comfort. It wasn\'t about any material gifts that swayed her, it was the important things and how she remembered Ryan to be he was always attentive to her needs and a good listener. Zoe really admired that about him. She wanted to message Ryan but didn\'t want to be too obvious. The next day the girls wanted to go to the Cinema, Zoe had agreed to go but her mind was all over the place. After the film they went to grab a bite to eat and Zoe recieved a message from Ryan that read\" Hi Zoe, was absolutley Lovely to see you lastnight, I have been Thinking of you since I saw you. I wondered if you are free this evening I\'d like to take you for coffee. Hope to hear back x Zoe replied within that minute as the girls egged her on as they could see that Zoe was in a world of her own while she was with them. Zoe replied back and said \"Ryan I really enjoyed seeing you too, and would love to see you tonight\" 7pm okay X they exchanged messages and had arranged to meet in a bar so Zoe went back to the Hotel and cleaned herself up abit and she went to meet him at the bar they had arranged. Zoe actually felt nervous this time like the butterflies type of nervous. She went inside and as she walked up to the bar she saw someone stood gazing at her as though she was the only woman alive. Now that\'s how every man should look at a woman. It was Ryan and he bought her a drink and they went to find a table. Zoe had alot to say she explained how she was due to leave the hotel tomorrow to go back home. Ryan said well I have some time off from my gigs for abit so I\'d like to spend the day with you if you like.Zoe said Yes I would love that but you know what I am going to do Ryan? He replied what? Zoe had decided as she had some of her annual leave left she would use it and rather than check out tomorrow to go home, she was going to book it till the end of the week as she had the means to do so which meant they could spend more time together. She did also add her friends are returning home tomorrow though. Ryan felt like he had ruined her girly time but Zoe said \" No you haven\'t Ryan infact you have been the best thing as the girls told me that they saw a light back in my eyes and they haven\'t seen that for awhile. Ryan and Zoe carried on their conversation and ordered some food. Then he took her to another bar but a really posh bar and treated her to some Sparkling wine. Zoe was feeling emotional and Ryan just looked into her eyes with a Twinkle that glistened in his sea blue eyes. Ryan sensed she felt strongly about something but he didn\'t know what. They talked about how many years they were together and Zoe said she didn\'t date for nearly 4years after their breakup because she never got over him. That\'s when she settled for 2nd best in Liam who was 11years older than her but while they spoke about things and Zoe was tearing up as she wanted to tell Ryan something but hesitated because of the painful memories it would evoke even though she got what she wanted from Liam he didn\'t treat her right. Ryan decided to take her back to his apartment so they could talk more privately, when they arrived back at his apartment Zoe started leaning into Ryan and he put his arm round her as she opened her heart and told him of her ordeal she said she had never told anyone this because she felt too ashamed. She even hid it from her close friends but they could see how her demeanor had changed over the years thinking it was just something minor. However while Zoe was expressing her deepest feelings to Ryan he could see her face change into an anxious state and her voice trembled as she wept trying to tell Ryan what had happened. Ryan gave her the tightest hug and a touch of her cheek as tears rolled down her face. He said I know you are upset about something Zoe what is it? Zoe said I was raped! Ryan couldn\'t take it in he just hugged her and she cried even more. He felt her pain and said nobody deserves that but especially you. He said I quite understand if you don\'t want to talk about it. She said well that\'s the thing Ryan I need to as it has been eating away at me for 8 and a half months. I have been too ashamed to tell a soul not even my family! Ryan said well You are very Brave Zoe to even tell me this much. Zoe told him it wasn\'t just once it was twice as Liam was abit of a jealous man and anyone who looked twice at me he would think I was getting chatted up. So she explained that Liam had arranged for his mate to take me out and spike my drink to rape me and the next morning Liam Raped me as he wanted to finish the job and that were supposed to teach me a lesson because He had a suspicious mind thinking I had men after me and he ended it so abruptly but I sensed he had different women infact I knew he did I just accepted it cos I did have some happy times with him, it was only as time passed he started to become dissatisfied with me and looking for younger women. Ryan couldn\'t help but show his deep emotion with tears he shed as he heard all this with what Zoe had told him this and how bitterly hurt he was to see her so distraught. He couldn\'t believe she had gone through all this on her own. Zoe could see how much it hurt Ryan to his Core to hear her traumatic experiences. Ryan said \"Zoe I cannot imagine how you must feel.\" Zoe said You are the only person I have shared that with and You\'re the only one I trust. Zoe had a message from her girlfriends as she was telling Ryan all this and Holly had text her to say they knew she needed to spend some time with Ryan and they were all happy to see the spark back in her eyes but they had all decided to leave the hotel early rather than the next day so they were just letting her know they were heading home. She replied and said thankyou and told them she had decided to extend her stay till the end of the week but she would be intouch with them all soon and thanked them for their understanding. After all the messages. Zoe turned to Ryan and said can I just stay here tonight Ryan I really don\'t want to be on my own right now. Ryan said I don\'t mind if you want to and feel okay I don\'t want to make you feel uncomfortable in any way Zoe. Zoe said that\'s just it Ryan I feel completely comfortable in your Presence You make me feel Safe Ryan you always did. The next morning Ryan made Zoe breakfast and they made plans of what to do that day. Zoe felt like going on a nice leisurely walk in a park. Ryan took her to one of the biggest and most beautiful parks in the City. Zoe shyly put her hand in Ryan\'s hand and she smiled and Ryan said Look! Your beautiful smile makes my heart melt and It is So Lovely to see you smile after all you\'ve told me Zoe what you\'ve been through it shows Great Strength. Zoe said\" Ryan don\'t you see, it\'s You that gives me the Strength and You that makes me smile, it\'s You that makes my heart skip a beat and it\'s You that takes my breath away with every glance, it\'s like my friends said that light came back into my eyes that night at the bar when I heard you sing, something happened to me that night, when I saw You Ryan after 9 long years, 6weeks and 12 days, as if You were the Missing Piece to my broken heart like my other half that I was Yearning for and Only You can fill that void and Help fix me Ryan. My friends They don\'t fully know why the Spark went out of me in the first place, but I know they knew something was seriously wrong but I made out that I was having stress at work which was actually true, but they knew something deeper was wrong. I couldn\'t tell them, I couldn\'t talk as I was still processing it myself and I guess I still am now, but I\'m not saying that I am cured. I still have nightmares and flash backs of it all and at the most random of times. Ryan said Zoe how have you coped without telling anyone! Zoe replied, \"Well Do you remember how I always kept a Journal, in this instance I wrote things down only to rip the pages up, to get it out of my head, I\'ve cried Uncontrollably for days on end till my heart bled dry, I\'ve self medicated, I\'ve drank, I\'ve slept for days, I\'ve cut myself even starved myself and was ready to end it all. Ryan put his arm round her and said \"Zoe I am Immensley and deeply Proud of You, Not for what you\'ve been through but How You have dealt with such a Traumatic and emotional experience . I can see how that experience has affected Your Confidence and chipped away at your soul, but Believe me when I say this Zoe, You are the Most Beautiful Person I\'ve ever known on this planet, both Inside and Out with a Heart of Pure Gold and Since we saw eachother just a few nights ago after 9years, I\'ve not been able to Think of anything or anyone else but You, Zoe said \"what are you saying Ryan? He replied, I guess what I am trying to say is I know it is early days but shall we give it another go and carry on where we left off? Zoe just leaped into Ryan\'s arms and said\" I thought you would never ask\" It was obvious they had an Intense magnetic spark of Chemistry and was hopelessly and deeply inLove with eachother even after 9years apart, like they were 2 halves that when brought together became whole again.
After a few days Ryan had an idea if Zoe were to agree to it. He wanted to take her away for a few days like a proper holiday where she could relax but she had to sort things out at work which she rang her Manager who put a great deal of pressure on her more than the others. Zoe told her Manager she is getting signed off due to stress which she hadn\'t yet organised it with her GP, but it was all true as she really has been carrying the heaviest burden on her weary shoulders for way too long! Ryan had arranged for them to go to Paris for about 5 days. Zoe was overwhelmed by the Genuine Care Ryan showed her and the Love and Affection she truly needed and Longed for. Zoe shed a tear as they boarded the train to Paris, Ryan touched her hand and gave her that Special look where their eyes locked. It was a 2and a half hour journey to Paris from where they had been in London.
They arrived mid afternoon at the Parie Hotel. When they arrived Ryan gave Zoe the Choice of what to do. Zoe was happy to rest up and have a Coffee and a Cozy Chat. Ryan was more than happy with that choice. They both wanted to go sight seeing the next day when they had settled into the Hotel. While they were having a coffee and a Chat, Ryan wanted to seranade Zoe He sang to her one of his own original songs it was Called How Can I get Over You. He told her he wrote that song only hours after their breakup and he knew she was the One as he said to Zoe that you don\'t get over The One when it is True Love it burns forever and I guess I\'ve carried a Tourch for You ever since, but never thought our Paths would ever meet especially like they have. Zoe cried tears of Joy even though shr was still broken inside after her ordeal. Ryan was Prepared to Support her every step of the way. He said I want You to know Zoe I am Always Here for You and You can tell me absolutley anything. Zoe said okay, let me tell you this, I Love You Ryan, You complete me You are the Love of my Life that has never truly stopped burning. I felt incomplete without You and as I never thought I would see you again let alone be in the same room as you, so I settled for someone like Him. I can\'t even say his name.
Ryan said You are worth a Million of him and He was the One who didn\'t Deserve You, You were way too good for Him and I hope you know that Zoe. Zoe said \"well after all what happened Ryan I felt it was all my fault and that I deserved to be treated like that as I began to feel so worthless as a woman with no Value or Purpose and felt like I had the Life sucked out of my lungs. I had no reason to live anymore. I had hit rock bottom Ryan emotionally I am still broken and battered and bruised and scarred right now, but You have been the best tonic I\'ve ever had in my Life. Although I know I have a massive way to go but You have Comforted my broken pieces and Your strong belief in me gives me that bit of Strength and Hope to get through another day, As You give me a Reason to Live, You are My Reason to Live Ryan. Not long after they drifted off to sleep peacefully.
The next day they went off for some sight seeing gazing into eachother\'s eyes watching Sunsets and everything were going beautifully.
Then Zoe had a call from her Mother who she rarely saw as there were alot of tensions between them, but she had a call from her Mum to say Her StepDad had passed away. This did upset Zoe greatly as she did have a closer relationship with her stepDad than she had with her own Mother as he had been her StepDad since she was 3 years old 36years he had been in her Life but she couldn\'t even tell him what happened to her, Ryan encouraged her to go and spend time with her Mum and family. Zoe said \"Ryan I cannot handle anything without you\" I don\'t think I can face seeing my Mum or anything right now as she doesn\'t know what\'s happened and I just can\'t face her. Ryan suggested sending a wreath or flowers if she wasn\'t upto it but he did give her time to think and said Please Promise me you will think about going to the funeral with or without me. Zoe said Ryan I can\'t do this without You in any way shape or form. You are what\'s Keeping me going right now. A few weeks later the funeral day arrived and Zoe and Ryan went to attend her StepDad\'s Funeral and Zoe felt this strong pull of emotion, she briefly saw her Mum and said can I say a tribute to my StepDad? So she said yes if you would like to, Zoe\'s Mum noticed who She had brought with her. Zoe had a half brother and Sister who were younger than her, but they both went to live with their Mother. They attended the funeral and were pleased to see her there. Zoe went upto give her tribute while Ryan looked on Proudly at her. Her speech she gave actually welled up from her heart based on her true feelings for Ryan and all she had suffered. This is how it went; Zoe said My StepDad John, Taught me a Beautiful life lesson that there is More happiness in Giving, and I saw that shine through in all He did for his family he always had a bright, beaming smile on his face and I used to think when I was 9 surely his jaw must ache with all that smiling. I once asked him why he smiled so much, and He said it\'s Love he said You\'ll understand when your older. I was like how can The word Love make you smile so much. Just a 9year old kid asking a simple question.
As she spoke these words the audience laughed heartily, then she caught the Gaze of Ryan and she said well 30years after asking that question I now truly understand how Love can make you feel and Why it makes One Smile So Much and The Power it has over us, it is Like The Strongest Ocean that never ends and the Joy and Ecstasy is electric, it fills every fibre of our being and our hearts over flow like a Crystal Clear River and when You Truly and Deeply Love Someone So Much it doesn\'t matter where You are or how long it takes to Find them, You know that Your heart is full and that the One You LOVE So Deeply Means the World to you In Every Single Way and Nothing or No one else could Ever Fill the Missing Piece, when You Have that They Enrich Your Life With So Much Meaning and Fulfillment that is Truly Overwhelming Yet So Inspiring You Can\'t Help but Smile all the time, You don\'t even realize You are smiling as it just Becomes Who You Are. Like a Bright Light that Lights Up the darkest Night.
And When You Find that Special Someone You Know You are Absolutley Meant to Be Together When They Smile at You in the Same way as You feel. It\'s Like You Share the Same Heart and Feel every feeling every Emotion that the Other One feels. Even when You suffer Pain or Emotional distress The One You Love Feels it too, It becomes Their Pain and You Can Pour out Your Heart Wide to them Knowing You Have Their Unconditonal Love and Support and they truly know How and When to Comfort You in the most Beautiful and Magical of Ways like no one Else, when You are broken in the Depths of Despair, They bind and Heal Your Wounds with Soothing Words like a Balm to Your Soul and Tender Affection in A Warm Hug that is Wrapped in The Strongest Bond That is LOVE. Zoe Paused as Ryan gave her that Tender Priceless Look and her Mother could sense she had just declared her Undying Love to Ryan.
Zoe\'s eyes filled up with tears as she knew she had just shared a piece of herself with all those in attendance but this got her Mum wondering what all that talk was about she knew something had happened to Zoe without her Saying anything but her words reflected her true feelings that Poured out of her heart like flowing water. Zoe may have carried on but her heart just melted when Ryan looked at her in such a Mesmerizing Way that Captivated Her Heart it drew her in like a Strong Magnetic Force.
After the Service Zoe didn\'t want to hang around too long. Her Mother came over to her and said What did you mean in that speech when You said When You are Broken in the Depths of Despair\" Zoe said what do you think it meant? Her Mother said well I don\'t know that\'s why I\'m asking but I know You meant every word, Zoe said how can You know that? She replied its a Mother\'s Instinct I know Somethings happened, Zoe said like what? Well something Serious Enough to say all that in a Speech! Zoe was Subdued as she already felt weak after pouring all her Energy into her tribute as she felt every word she spoke. It took alot of feeling she had to tap into what her heart were really telling her. Zoe wanted to leave but Ryan while respectfully adhering couldn\'t help but try and encourage her to open upto her Mother. Zoe said I can\'t Ryan I\'ve never been close with my Mother and we have never had much connection, Ryan knew that Her Mother was aware of something like her friends were. Zoe just said I want to Leave now, so they said their goodbyes and When they got on the train back to London where Zoe had since moved in with Ryan in his apartment Zoe said Thankyou for doing this with me Ryan. He said Zoe You are Amazing Your Tribute Speech was like opening a page of a book it just flowed out of you, You are a Real Deep Person Zoe like the Deepest Ocean. Zoe said well I hope You know I meant every word and felt every emotion. Ryan said I felt it too like You said like two halves of a Heart that complete eachother making the heart whole when they come together So Beautifully put. Some time passed and Zoe had to leave her job since moving away from her home when she moved in with Ryan in his Apartment in London, but she got alot of unwanted contact from atleast one male collegue who once took down her number. He always paid her alot of attention but for the wrong reasons. Zoe was still very Delicate and felt she could only handle Ryan\'s gentle words. Zoe had to focus on her mental health and Her and Ryan spoke about therapy as he offered to not only pay but to go and Support her as he Felt she needed some emotional support professionally to help her to heal. In time Zoe agreed to therapy now she had told Ryan about it she may feel able to share with a therapist. The therapist was a woman but the first day she was due to attend the woman had rang in sick, and the only replacement was a man. Ryan realised this could be too much for her to go through telling a man about her ordeal. Zoe held tightly onto Ryan\'s hand and all the time she spoke she was gripping his hand tighter and she gained the Strength through his endless Love and Support. She got given homework to help her to analyze and accept these painful emotions she was told to write down one of the memories of the traumatic experience and ask herself how did it make me feel to write it down in asmuch details. Zoe began to cry as she wrote down the moment she woke up from being drugged to her second ordeal and she failed to tell Ryan how long it all lasted. The crime lasted some hours. She managed to escape in the evening. After 6months of therapy Zoe was very slowly growing Ryan could see how she, while still timid that she had gained a small measure of confidence back. Zoe felt Ryan had been her biggest Support throughout her journey. Ryan had started doing his music gigs around different places but this time He made sure he didn\'t leave Zoe alone she always accompanied him at every gig knowing he was Always Singing to her as their hearts Spoke the Unspoken words as they felt the Magnetic force between them. Zoe was feeling alittle more confident although still had her down days. Zoe knew she had a reason to Live as her StepDad always Showed her how to Love but Now She felt Loved and Cherished by the Man She Truly Loved. Over time Ryan proposed to Zoe and they got Married on Zoe\'s 40th Birthday which Zoe said was the Best Gift she could ever receieve and how happy it made her. Now at the Reception Ryan gave His Touching Speech
He said Ladies and Gentlemen thankyou all for coming today to share our Special Day with Us. Zoe is my Beautiful Bride and the One I can\'t Live without She couldn\'t know how the years we were apart how Broken I was and as Zoe describes now we have put eachother\'s pieces back together like 2 halves of a Heart and Now We Are One. Zoe I want you to know that Since we reunited over a year ago You brought back the Joy in my Life and You give me meaning and Purpose and I absolutley know that my Purpose is to Love and Care for You forever. I will give you all the Love, Support and Comfort You need. I want you to have the Best Life and to Always Be Happy, as You make me Truly Happy and I want You to feel that Love and Happiness that You bring to me. And to enjoy Laughter together and the Warmth of the Sunshine on your face. Zoe You have made me the man I am today because I am Captivated By You, Your Beauty, Your Sweet Heart and Your Strength You Always show Inspires Me, You Give of Yourself to make others smile and You Never Fail to make me Smile and I know my Smile will last forever As You Brighten up my World and Light up My Life Zoe You are a Beautiful Diamond that I will Always hold Close to my Heart and I want You to Keep Shining as the Radiant Precious Gem that You are. I Love You Mrs Taylor Forever More. Zoe cried so much throughout that Amazing heartfelt speech. Zoe said I echo every word back to you Ryan. You are My Ray of Sunshine that has wiped away the darkest clouds in my Life while riding the Storm together, You have been the Biggest Support to me and Given Me So Much to Live for You are The One that Brought the Light back into my Eyes and into my Life. You couldn\'t ever imagine How Deeply You have Touched My Life and My Heart I am Drawn to You Like a Magnet and Your Love and Kindness Pulls me in and I can\'t get enough. You are My World Ryan and You have made me the Happiest 40year old Woman on the Planet and Made All My Dreams Come True as I didn\'t want to be alone and 40!! You Complete me and Are My Joy The Love of My LIFE Always and Forever. And Yes They Lived Happily Ever After.
The End!