Sassy Lou

Check Up on Me

Abasement wears a million appellations

It twists my conceptions, it plays it’s games

Nothing feels whole, I’m hollow inside

A chassis in motion, an essence that hides

I doubt my purpose, I question my dignity

Why was I given this weight at birth?

Phantasies fall apart before they start

 

The cosmos keep tearing at my heorte

I sit in the gloom of my own minds room

drowning in clemency, rehearsing the gloom

Hoping for better, but braced for the worst

because affliction shows up where joy comes in bursts

I simper on cue, I giggle on demand

but it’s only a façade, a trembling hand

 

The essence can’t lie, it leaks through the furrows

the darker the hole, the blacker the phantasies

So, check up on me, even when I say, “ I’m fine”

My silence speaks glamorous, between the lines

If my light grows faint, help me find my glow

Remind me I’m MORE than the weight I show

I’m not my affirmation, I am not my fear,

I am still alive & I am still here