I sit in my home staring into nothing
As time passes by, maybe I\'ll feel something
nights leading into constant rushing
fights and love filled with shoving
Life has been something all right
Joy was overshadowed by a tedious night
I grow tired, my neck feeling airtight
Maybe someone to love to lift this blight
Now I wonder will sleep or be wakeful
can\'t sleep, it all feels so wasteful
I can\'t help but be so grateful that I am not hateful
But goddamn it all feels so painful