Here I am, thinking about you. I wish I knew if I crossed your mind at all... Do you miss me? Did you ever miss me?
Sometimes I feel so foolish, I felt more for you than I should have. I wonder if you\'ll remember me, or if you\'ll try your hardest to forget. I wonder if you even have to try... Perhaps I am just forgettable.
I miss you. But I\'m not you allowed to tell you that, and it hurts. I can\'t help but wonder if and when I\'ll fall in love again. Will I still think about you when he\'s holding me? Will I think about you when I\'m looking up at his face, searching for something, anything to fall in love with.
Maybe my love is superficial, perhaps my love wouldn\'t carry him far... But I do believe I fell in love.
I miss him every day. I just want him to come back, even though he\'s not good for me. I thought he\'d still be my friend, as he promised, and I fell for it. I feel so stupid. He laughed at me when I brought it up. He doesn\'t care.
You—don\'t—care. And I know this... And yet... I miss you.
The way you laugh. The way you talk when you\'re explaining or venting about something, the excitement in your eyes. You were different talking about the people you loved, and I noticed that. I miss the warmth you had when it was just the two of us, that you didn\'t let the others see. You were gentle with me.
I still remember the first day. Realizing I wasn\'t that short standing right up next to you. Sitting on your bed, so badly wanting you to kiss me. You didn\'t kiss me first though...you hugged me first. I still remember what you said, and what it was like, us standing there feeling awkward with the newness, but you held me, and I held you. For once I didn\'t want to let go first.
When you kissed me it was so gentle and sweet. I wanted more. But mainly I wanted you. I always think of you, no matter who I\'m with.
I don\'t know how long I\'ll miss you for, or how long I\'ll have feelings for you. I know it\'s unreciprocated, I know I shouldn\'t have hope. And yet, a part of me still checks my phone, hoping to see your name.
As Ty said, there\'s my whole world, and then there\'s you. Unfortunately, he couldn\'t be more right. I miss you, so much.
I did fall in love with you, I\'m sorry.