There is a monster inside of me
It claws its way up my throat,
Scratching, growling
It is forceful and unyielding
It knaws away at me,
Eating me inside out
It wants me to feed it.
To allow myself to become a fat little piggy
All plumped up, filled with rolls of fat and covered in sweat,
Salted to taste.
It wants to eat me,
To lick the meat of my bones
Crawl its way into the cavity where my brain once was
And make me give in to the sin that is gluttony.
I will not let the monster win.
I will keep myself small, and sacred, and clean
Maybe if I get small enough,
The monster will leave me alone.
I will have gotten too small to be a worthy meal,
And it will find someone bigger to pick on next.