Malo J

Grief is My Mother

Grief is the little girl in the back

Of my throat,

Clawing her way out so I 

Can hear what she has to say.

 

So I can look in the mirror and

Recognize what I see;

So I can hear my mom call

My name and know it’s mine.

 

Grief is the little girl down

The street,

Laughter chiming through the

Wind to bless my ears.

 

Grief is the girl I didn’t kiss

Today; how eighth grade

Was her hardest year and she

Can’t tell her parents she’s gay

Because her dad voted for Trump.

 

Grief is the cursor blinking

On the white page;

A quiet pleading to be filled with

Words that make it beautiful.

 

Grief is my mother.

Grief is my mother.

 

Grief is my mother and

How she told me she’s glad I

Was born the day her dog died

Because she needed the distraction.

 

Grief is my mother.

Grief is my mother and the

Hug I didn’t return

The night she cleared all the razors

Out of my room.

 

Grief is my mother.

Grief is my mother and how

She knew my dad wasn’t ready

To be a father, but carried me

Anyways.

 

Grief is my mother.

Grief is my mother.

Grief is my mother.